there’s a group of us that have been going through a discipleship curriculum called “sonship” by world harvest mission. one of the lessons calls us to share “justification by faith” with a non-believer. to do this takes courage. to do this also takes an understanding of our faith as christians. but more than these, to do this takes a dependency on the Holy Spirit to do what only He can do. i’ve stumbled and fumbled my way through sharing the gospel plenty of times and have a hard time communicating justification by faith without using the words “justification” or “faith.” what about you? do you ever feel ill-equipped or at a complete loss of words when you’re in a place to share your faith?
i believe that it’s in these moments that we’re supposed to move forward and depend on the Holy Spirit. i think that it has less to do with us than we think. i’ve seen and experienced people come to Christ through a fumbling and stumbling of words. and, i know that my revelation of God and Jesus Christ was not because someone convinced me, but because the Holy Spirit breathed life into me.
when will we trust in the power of the Holy Spirit? what will it take to let go of our limitations and press further into our life’s journey led by Jesus Christ? i’m not writing this as a criticism. i’m writing this to challenge myself and hopefully you to trust in the power of the Holy Spirit!!! let’s go… as Scripture says, “the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.” and as it says in the next verse, i’m praying that he Lord of the harvest will send you and into “His” harvest field!!! (Matthew 9: 37-38)
I have to admit that 2009 was my worse and toughest physical year yet. I slacked on my workouts and slacked even further when I fell from a ladder in my garage and tweeked my back. In the Fall, I passed out from fatigue and had to force myself to rest and take my health more seriously. Through all of this, I’ve definitely become more aware of the necessity to keep my core strong. I don’t work out the vanity muscles anymore (c’mon guys, you know what i’m talking about – the biceps) but rather make sure that my core muscles are in shape – i.e. abs and lower back.
This idea of “core strength” is challenging to me as I consider my spiritual well being as well. I think that it’s what Christ means when he talks about doing things like praying and giving in secret instead of displaying them in public. I think it’s what Paul means when he talks about Christ in us and growing in “inner strength” through his Spirit (Ephesians 3:16). If we remain focused on our public display of strength and only work out those muscles (spiritual or physical), we may be weaker than we think. My inner strength grows as I continue to trust in HIm and as I continue to give more and more of my will over to Him. It’s from this “core” that I’m able to make tough decisions, remain steadfast in times of uncertainty or opposition, and love when it seems like it’s impossible to do so… How’s your core? How would you gauge your inner strength?
i was reading joshua 1 last week where God tells Joshua that Moses is dead and he is now in charge and will lead the people into the promised land. what kept sticking out to me was the fact that God tells Joshua to enter the land that God had promised them but to be, “strong and courageous.” he says it three times in the first nine verses! now, why would Joshua need to be strong and courageous if he was about to enter the “promised land?” this was the cumlination right? i mean, they had escaped Egypt, walked through the desert for 40 years so i figure the destination should be a walk in the park right? NO!!!
as i read through this passage over and over again, i started to see how God was telling Joshua to be strong and courageous in keeping His word; making sure that he doesn’t stray from it at all. he didn’t say, “be strong and courageous” and go and build up your army. he calls Joshua to trust in Him and to keep His word. what does this have to do with entering into the promised land? maybe more than we think…
maybe the pursuit of our dreams has just as much to do with our formation as it does with reaching the destination. maybe our formation is the purpose for God even giving us the dream/destination in the first place. maybe walking 40 years in the desert was preparing everyone to trust in God’s provision every day rather than reacting to the environment. He keeps saying that He’s with us and will never leave us or forsake us. But do we “believe” Him? Do we “trust” Him? More often than not, we don’t. We give in to our fear, the circumstance and believe what we see rather than what we hear from God. So, maybe God is constantly working to transform our life so that we’re looking to Him rather than what lies before us. Our dreams, then, have just as much to do with changing us as they do with changing the world around us…
I hate being alone!!! I can’t stand it. On a Meyer-Briggs personality profile, I’m a capital “E” for Extrovert. I have no “I” in me. I get so fueled by being surrounded by people and have to be pulled away from the crowd in order to get me out of it. But… this past year has been a season of more alone time than I’m particularly used to. And it has been in this alone time that I’ve had to face some incredible, dysfunctional junk in my life. People have asked me about my journey of church planting and I’ve openly shared that it’s been a hard and painful year. Mostly, I’ve had to face the incredible fear and insecurity that is deeply rooted in my heart and soul. Being alone forces me to find my identity in Christ alone. I’m so easily swayed to find significance and worth in others and how they “feel” about me. Simply put, I’ve heard the question from God: “Why do you want to plant this church? Is it because you love people? Or is it because you want to be successful in your ministry?” It’s humbling and almost shaming to answer honestly. I do love people!!! But when I’m honest with myself, I know that I love me more. And I know that I wrestle with my sense of self-worth. This is why my times of solitude shape me and help me cling to Christ all the more. It’s in my aloneness that I have no one to turn to and have no way to fix me on my own. It breaks me into a posture of opening my life to Jesus. I was sharing my process and journey with my previous pastor (Dave Gibbons – Newsong Community Church) and he recommended reading Henri Nowen’s book “The Way of the Heart.” Nouwen beautifully portrays my struggle and has helped me to embrace my time of solitude rather than run from it.
There is so much more I’ve learned from my times of solitude. More will come next week…
so, my big question that i’ve been wrestling with for some time now that always gets rekindled when i come to a gathering of pastors and leaders is: “what does speed have to do with the power of the Holy Spirit?”
i ask this question because it seems that we’re mezmerized by the “fastest growing this…” and the “speed at which things get accomplished…” oddly, it creates this anxiety in me that i’m moving too slowly and that i’m always fighting failure since i’m slowing down. the affirmation of speed as it correlates to the power and presence of God also makes me feel like I don’t have that much power and presence of God in my life. i’m sure i’m writing and thinking out of insecurity, but it’s hard when it’s in your face all the time and all around you.
what does the affirmation of speed create in me? i think that i become more shallow. i move from person to person because i don’t have time. i’m very selective with my meetings in order to accomplish my agenda which needs to be accomplished quickly. i work so hard that i can never “enjoy” the moment or the blessing right before me. what’s worse is that i’m pretty sure i make others around me more anxious about moving too slowly and make them feel like lazy sluggards for not helping our community grow. sorry…:)
i always think about the high probability that Jesus would be fired from most churches today because he wouldn’t be effective enough. I think that he would be judged for only amassing 12 followers over the course of 3 years and the fact that 1 of them betrayed him only adds icing to the cake of the argument. he deeply invested in his disciples and gave himself away. he took the time to be with them and walked with them through ministry.
i fight for peace in my life all the time. when someone asks how my church is going (codespeak for how’s attendance?) i always cringe a bit. but, i believe that people in my church are growing. i believe that we’re learning through the scriptures and through our experiences in our community. i believe that strongholds are being broken and people are feeling more and more liberated. i believe that we’re seeking after Christ and valuing our “relationship” with our Savior verus just trying to “fix” our junk. so… i think we’re growing… really growing…